By: Revanche

Living in the time of pandemic: COVID-19 (42)

March 22, 2021

Year 2 of COVID in the Bay Area.

Year 2, Day 1: Hell of a day, I tell ya. A terrible confluence of events meant that PiC had to sleep from 3-8:30 am and then go into meetings most of the day. His meetings overlapped with Smol’s awake times so I ended up covering from 8 pm Sunday through 8 pm Monday, just in time for me to start the next night shift. I got absolutely no work done.

Luckily for him I was able to but this is a once in a long while kind of thing. I can’t sustain that physically or mentally or professionally.

Year 2, Day 2: Smol took a bit of pity on me and managed one 5 hour stretch of sleep which granted me about 3 hours. Blessed three hours. But then they woke up again at 430, hungry and squalling, and so much hungrier than usual that I had to nurse them intermittently for the next two hours. Sigh. By the time we woke up again, PiC was running late for his super early morning meeting and I had to shake him awake. That set a bit of the tone for the day.

I rested during Smol’s nap, which I usually don’t do but it was sorely needed after that 430-630 stretch. Unfortunately JB didn’t have their Zoom Fitness class after kindergarten today but they had a post class craft in mind so I left them to it after I unloaded the dryer. They’re responsible for putting away the laundry later after crafting.

I resigned myself to getting nothing done for the first half of the day because the tardiness spawned another meeting for PiC and I was just too mush-brained to do much during their admittedly decent nap (THANK YOU SNOO). I made lunch for the kids but stopped short of making lunch for adults because Smol Acrobat demanded to be picked up again. They are going through some serious clinginess and doesn’t like to play alone for more than 5 minutes before squawking up a storm. They used to play alone happily for 15-20 minutes, what happened?? Do we have to train them to enjoy solo time now that we finally get a decent nap more than not? I’m not enjoying this, whatever it is. There also seems to be some cluster feeding going on which I also don’t appreciate.

In any case, we survive til mid afternoon when PiC emerges from his den of stress and takes Sera out before taking the kids out. I sit like a lump of dough on the recliner for a while, just resting, while JB does some art. Eventually I finally drag myself up and out to join them for a walk but annoyingly my steps weren’t counted in my MapMyWalk app. That feeds data to the Achievement app.

By the by, if any of you use the Achievement app and haven’t maxed out your referrals, you’re welcome to give me your referral code and I’ll share it on the blog so you can get some referral points. Just email me!

Year 2, Day 3: On top of the ongoing assaults on Asians here and many other places, today features the murder of eight women by a white racist male who wants to pretend that his discomfort with himself justifies the murder of Asian women because of his perception of them. And the police are going along with that narrative instead of calling it the racist, misogynist crime that it is. I’m very done with white supremacy and everyone who upholds it. Anti-Asian hate is nothing new and dates back in legislation as far back as 1875 and the Page Act. I knew about the Chinese Exclusion Act in 1882 but I didn’t learn about the Page Act in school.

As Roxane Gay said: yesterday was a bad day for those murdered women. His day was fine, he did exactly what he wanted.

I’ll note too that he’s perfectly fine and uninjured after murdering people just like the white supremacist responsible for the Emanuel Church massacre was walking around post massacre. The police captain is even making excuses for him. Meanwhile, Black people, like Breonna Taylor are murdered in their beds, murdered walking home from buying tea, while just being children playing with toys.

How are people still so ok with this? How are people still looking for reasons to say it’s ok to murder non-White people in many cases simply for existing?

Greg Pak, a comic writer I like, shared this resource and encouraged people to sign up:

BYSTANDER INTERVENTION TRAINING TO STOP ANTI-ASIAN/AMERICAN AND XENOPHOBIC HARASSMENT

Year 2, Day 4: I had marginally better sleep with Smol but more rage as the racism continues. It’s not a surprise but it’s still appalling when an elderly Asian grandmother is attacked in broad daylight for no freaking reason. I note that her attacker immediately receives medical care. By the way police routinely murder Black people in this country for crimes like walking on the street or driving cars, I would expect that man to be dead. But he’s not. I wonder why.

Note that I’m not saying he should be dead. I’m saying if he didn’t have to die for his far more egregious crime of assaulting an elder, why did Breonna Taylor have to be murdered in her bed? Why did Tamir Rice have to be murdered on the street for playing with a gun?

The same 39 year old man is being investigated for attacking two elderly Asian people in San Francisco. I really have no words for how tired I am of white supremacy and law enforcement protecting murderers.

All, please be aware this happened in San Francisco yesterday morning. There were two victims:

1. A 76-year-old victim – the woman named in the story,
2. An 83-year-old victim.

The same 39-year-old man is being investigated in both cases. https://t.co/ip3QtM6qQf

— Celeste P. (@Celeste_pewter) March 18, 2021

Year 2, Day 5: It’s an extra busy day at work. I started my day super early since Smol Acrobat decided to wreck my night of sleep so I guess it all worked out?

Schrodinger’s racist is very on point. I can’t help wondering who truly stands against racism, who secretly thinks the stereotypes are true, who thinks less of us because we’re not white, who would just stand by while elderly are assaulted and ignore their pain.

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