Good Things Friday (51)
February 7, 2020
If you’d like to join me in helping Lakota families and/or rural libraries this year, please read this post. Over 6 weeks in 2019, we raised $2669.94 for the Lakota families, touching 27 lives. What can we do in 2020?
Current total: Lakota, $521.62; Rural libraries, $321.62.
1. My massage therapist made me feel 80% human again (20% remains a self zapping electric eel). I was feeling a third round of a flare-up coming on, the day of my appointment, and I could not be more grateful for the appointment pulling me back from the edge. I reminded myself a few times that feeling “not like death” is not the same as feeling “good” or actually being well, so don’t overdo it again over the weekend.
Challenges this week: Documenting a decade of verbal and emotional abuse of a loved one for a legal document: 12 more hours of emotional turmoil. Another friend is having a horrible time in a toxic workplace. Mr. PIE has gone into hospice. We had a terrifying incident over the weekend where PiC could have been killed if one of any number of things had gone a little bit more wrong than it did. He was ok after the whole ordeal but it was scary for him in the moment, and horrifying for me after the fact, when we realized how lucky we were that he was ok. A friend is waiting for a possibly very scary diagnosis and I am hoping so much that it won’t be bad news. Insomnia ate my brain at least three nights this week, leaving me a zombie the next day. Sera is limping for some unknown reason.
2. I finally hit a “good enough” draft to stop writing and start editing my documentation. I celebrated by running to the pharmacy to fetch Seamus his medication. I know how to party.
3. We decided to go out to dinner on Saturday night. No other night of the week is ever suitable for going out and we don’t generally go out unless we have guests to treat so this was unusual but it was a lovely treat and a nice way to give ourselves a break after an especially taxing day. We even had non-parenting, non-responsibility related conversation because JB was busy coloring! I can’t remember the last time we had that.
4. A colleague/friend was unexpectedly in town and we organized a last minute visit. It had been a really rough day and week up to this point, so I was grateful for the surprise. They are always a delight to spend time with and made it super easy for me to get adult time away from the family which was a first in a long while – they came to me and we just stepped around the corner for dinner. It’s just so hard for me to marshal the energy to go out, ever, this was the best possible set up. A dinner I didn’t cook (I love cooking a good meal but, energy), no need to truly host, just a quick bite to eat and easy good conversation.
5. First, I was physically capable of cooking a whole dinner on Tuesday. First time in weeks, possibly months. I’ve been in so much pain I can’t even remember the last time I did my usual dinner prep. Second, JB loved the dinner so much, they asked to have the meal again the next day. It wasn’t anything super special but it was a nice thing to hear.
:: How was your week?
Glad you are feeling (marginally) better. Crossed fingers you continue to improve!
Thank you! Doing my best to make that possible with lots of rest breaks.
Very true! massages are always a blessing! Glad it helped you feel a bit better. Have you considered acupuncture??
Documenting past trauma must have been very emotionally draining. Now that you are out of the abuse cycle, hopefully it’s giving you strength to heal.