By: Revanche

Good Thing Friday (77)

August 7, 2020

If you’d like to join me in helping Lakota families and/or rural libraries this year, please read this post. Over 6 weeks in 2019, we raised $2669.94 for the Lakota families, touching 27 lives. What can we do in 2020?

Current total: Lakota, $1,713.62; Rural libraries, $321.62.


1. We discovered that not only does Gott’s Roadside have gluten free buns that are pretty good, I seem to be tolerating that carb content well enough that I can enjoy a burger WITH a bun!! WOOOOO. Of course that feels like lifestyle inflation because, my goodness, it’s a $9+tax burger. But it was a burger on a bun which I haven’t had in ages so I’m still happy. *happy burger dance*

2. Our friends sent JB a lovely Comic Con in a box gift and that was just so thoughtful and lovely.

Challenges this week: Technology has been kicking my behind. All week, Wi-Fi has mostly been working for everyone BUT me, and I’m right next to the router. My old laptop that JB is using for lessons is a touchscreen and the touchscreen function just quit. My phone’s necessary basic apps just quit and I spent many many hours fixing it to no avail. We mirror computer screens to the TV so we can oversee lessons from afar and that keeps disconnecting but refusing to let me change it. On a very minor note, I had to cancel our Highlights subscription for High Five Espanol, the bilingual magazine, it was nowhere near the beginner level I was hoping to share with JB. I had a few years of high school Spanish and a little workplace Spanish under my belt, and this was above my level. So that was a disappointment.

3. I had another fraught nightmare about fighting with my dad over some life news and in the dream I absolutely told him off for all the selfish manipulative hurtful things he did. For the first time in two decades of these nightmares, I didn’t wake up feeling upset by the fight. Instead, I felt mentally and emotionally unburdened. Working with my therapist has let me open up to the idea that it’s actually ok for me to be mad at a parent and say so. Culturally, the very idea has been anathema and I think I’ve even subconsciously not allowed myself to feel that anger in a real way, I’ve just been making myself feel guilty for even feeling it because that’s a “betrayal” of my family values. As if his actions that caused the valid anger were not the much worse betrayal of our supposedly shared values! It’s interesting that I intellectually knew that but very clearly did not feel that deep down. It wasn’t my fault that he made the choices that he did and I am allowed to have feelings about how he harmed me and my family. I don’t have to feel guilty about those feelings. This is some progress!

:: How was your week?

 

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